the flowers you gave me are not yet wilting,
i'm starting to think they're not real.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Saturday, June 09, 2007
the distant kind of lonely
there are two kinds of loneliness,
one which seeks comfort in the company of others, or of God
the other seeps through every conversation, every word, every action,
that in the end it feels like it will never end
It's the kind of loneliness one feels when he won't let God comfort him,
he just runs.
one which seeks comfort in the company of others, or of God
the other seeps through every conversation, every word, every action,
that in the end it feels like it will never end
It's the kind of loneliness one feels when he won't let God comfort him,
he just runs.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
lost in translation
madalas,
lalo na pag hindi mo maintindihan ang mga binibigkas ng bibig
mas madali dumama.
O Hesus Hilumin Mo
-Bukas Palad
KORO:
O Hesus, hilumin Mo
Aking sugatang puso
Nang aking mahango
Kapwa kong kasimbigo
Hapis at pait Iyong patamisin
At hagkan ang sakit
Nang magningas ang rikit (KORO)
Aking sugatang diwa't katawan
Ay gawing daan
Ng 'Yong kaligtasan (KORO)
~
magpapasukan nanaman.
hindi pa ko handa.
sangkatutak na readings,
mahabang pila sa xeroxan,
at butas na bulsa!
lalo na pag hindi mo maintindihan ang mga binibigkas ng bibig
mas madali dumama.
O Hesus Hilumin Mo
-Bukas Palad
KORO:
O Hesus, hilumin Mo
Aking sugatang puso
Nang aking mahango
Kapwa kong kasimbigo
Hapis at pait Iyong patamisin
At hagkan ang sakit
Nang magningas ang rikit (KORO)
Aking sugatang diwa't katawan
Ay gawing daan
Ng 'Yong kaligtasan (KORO)
~
magpapasukan nanaman.
hindi pa ko handa.
sangkatutak na readings,
mahabang pila sa xeroxan,
at butas na bulsa!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
changing lanes and tooth aches
You know why long distance relationships don't work? Cause people can't wait... they want immediate gratification! Just like when you drive and change lanes just because the cars in the other lane moves faster, in the end finding yourself even more jammed in traffic. It's human nature really. But there is always a choice. Waiting is a choice.
Then we think about what if's
Then we learn about forgiveness, abandoning hope that things could've been different, grateful that things are the way they are, understanding that what is, is what should be. Finally we let go of the past.
~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~
In less than 2 months i underwent 2 operations: my knee, and now, two of my molars (make that 3 if you consider each tooth as two separate operation). Apparently there is no more space in my mouth for them to grow. thankfully, my jaw did not swell badly, it looks normal really. I only ate yogurt and ice cream yesterday because i couldn't chew anything, really good post operation food!
Then we think about what if's
Then we learn about forgiveness, abandoning hope that things could've been different, grateful that things are the way they are, understanding that what is, is what should be. Finally we let go of the past.
~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~
In less than 2 months i underwent 2 operations: my knee, and now, two of my molars (make that 3 if you consider each tooth as two separate operation). Apparently there is no more space in my mouth for them to grow. thankfully, my jaw did not swell badly, it looks normal really. I only ate yogurt and ice cream yesterday because i couldn't chew anything, really good post operation food!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
INVENIO
Watch Invenio. May 26 at SM Megamall, Cinema 9!
See Koine Scholars perform for you with much heart and talent!
It's a show you wouldn't want to miss!
See you there!
For more information go to http://amazingkoineshows.com/
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
hoping i made the right decision
it's like picking the right pen that would give you luck in your next exam...somehow the thickness of the ink, the smoothness of the ballpoint on the paper, and even how comfortable it moves with your hands that it just makes you think a little better...
the little things ^^,
the little things ^^,
Monday, April 23, 2007
regrets
erased.
it's just bugging me...
why? coz im tired of words that never seem to get things right.
haha!
wishing i never said some of the things i said
>_<
it's just bugging me...
why? coz im tired of words that never seem to get things right.
haha!
wishing i never said some of the things i said
>_<
100th post, and i walk again
nakakalakad na ko, with a limp though....pero ok na rin.
bukas first time ko magcocommute muli na mag isa...exciting!
ngayon nlng ako nagpost kasi angdami ko inayos, finals plus paper.
napagod ako. angdami kong oras, kaso nagcram pa rin ako, panu ba naman kasi ay nakakatamad, feel ko bakasyon na, tpos sabi pa ng mga tao, wag mo na isipin ung finals, pagaling ka muna, e d sinunod ko naman...nagcram tuloy ako.
mga nakakatawang nangyari:
a polsci teacher: "a ikaw pala yun, akala ko myth ka lang...pero diba, the trauma!"
karamihan ng gurad sa lrt: "miss ok ka lang/o ano nangyari jan?"
mga tambay/tricycle driver: "miss buhatin nalang kita"
si mama: "kumapit ka, nakakauntog!"; "AY BALIBAGO!"
ang pinsan kong Qt: "*t*tin akong bata!" mamimiss kita! <<
~.~
anghirap ng pos53 finals!
~.~
sori sa mga inaway ko at pinagtampuhan ko, ibig sabihin lang nun, you're important.
~.~
mag miminor ba ko sa lit or philo? creative writing?
dami pa kelangan gawin...hay...
bakasyon na!
bukas first time ko magcocommute muli na mag isa...exciting!
ngayon nlng ako nagpost kasi angdami ko inayos, finals plus paper.
napagod ako. angdami kong oras, kaso nagcram pa rin ako, panu ba naman kasi ay nakakatamad, feel ko bakasyon na, tpos sabi pa ng mga tao, wag mo na isipin ung finals, pagaling ka muna, e d sinunod ko naman...nagcram tuloy ako.
mga nakakatawang nangyari:
a polsci teacher: "a ikaw pala yun, akala ko myth ka lang...pero diba, the trauma!"
karamihan ng gurad sa lrt: "miss ok ka lang/o ano nangyari jan?"
mga tambay/tricycle driver: "miss buhatin nalang kita"
si mama: "kumapit ka, nakakauntog!"; "AY BALIBAGO!"
ang pinsan kong Qt: "*t*tin akong bata!" mamimiss kita! <<
~.~
anghirap ng pos53 finals!
~.~
sori sa mga inaway ko at pinagtampuhan ko, ibig sabihin lang nun, you're important.
~.~
mag miminor ba ko sa lit or philo? creative writing?
dami pa kelangan gawin...hay...
bakasyon na!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
disease
"kumbaga I'm cured from you"
as if I'm a disease...
well, I'm happy for you,
You'll be able to live your life as you should
and for me,
You'll finally stop blaming me for your sadness...
as if I'm a disease...
well, I'm happy for you,
You'll be able to live your life as you should
and for me,
You'll finally stop blaming me for your sadness...
mysteries
nalabhan ko USB thumb driev ni ate....ain't that nice?
ayaw ko na magblog...napapagod na ko...hay...
ayaw ko na mag isip.
at syempre naiinis ako kasi bakit feel ko lost ako, ung iba hindi...
although I know that's not true...
At syempre si ******, talking about allegories, just seems to enjoy writing in his blogs...and his entries mystify me.... and it's scary in a sense...
Perhaps because his words says too much yet so little.
I love solving puzzles, but I can't seem to solve his... but I think I'm on the right track...hmm...
but some puzzles don't have answers, they remain as mysteries.
ayaw ko na magblog...napapagod na ko...hay...
ayaw ko na mag isip.
at syempre naiinis ako kasi bakit feel ko lost ako, ung iba hindi...
although I know that's not true...
At syempre si ******, talking about allegories, just seems to enjoy writing in his blogs...and his entries mystify me.... and it's scary in a sense...
Perhaps because his words says too much yet so little.
I love solving puzzles, but I can't seem to solve his... but I think I'm on the right track...hmm...
but some puzzles don't have answers, they remain as mysteries.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Just when I find myself, I get lost again...
I have a dilemma and direQ (with a Q) told me something that really confuses me now: "sometimes, the best thing you can do for someone is to fail him/her..."
and if I do that, people will probably hate me...but somehow i think it's the right thing to do so that she'd know her actions have consequences and that she can't have her way all the time.
may be I can just scare her....wadyathink?
~~~
I lost my wallet...and I practiced losing it three times!
beat that!
Ask kuya Benjie, he witnessed it all!
~~~
I didn't know my psych test is tomorrow and that think-piece on agamben is on thurs >>> wake up call: I'm becoming too lax with my studies...
have to concentrate! have to concentrate! have to concentrate!
~~~
I have a 30 MINUTE ORALS on POS61!!!
Imagine 30minutes of talking with sir RC???
I wonder what we're gonna talk about....hmm....gays and lesbians???
may be...
Well I like sir RC, it's just that...30 minutes???!!! With about 30 students, how'd he do it? What would I say? It's really scary...(???)
~~~
I have many assignments for our band theory class in Koine, I really hope I can do everything properly. I have to manage my time well!
~~~
napanuod ko na dream girls kagabi, ang ganda ng mga kanta...ewan ko lng kung naappreciate nung kasama ko...hmp :p
and if I do that, people will probably hate me...but somehow i think it's the right thing to do so that she'd know her actions have consequences and that she can't have her way all the time.
may be I can just scare her....wadyathink?
~~~
I lost my wallet...and I practiced losing it three times!
beat that!
Ask kuya Benjie, he witnessed it all!
~~~
I didn't know my psych test is tomorrow and that think-piece on agamben is on thurs >>> wake up call: I'm becoming too lax with my studies...
have to concentrate! have to concentrate! have to concentrate!
~~~
I have a 30 MINUTE ORALS on POS61!!!
Imagine 30minutes of talking with sir RC???
I wonder what we're gonna talk about....hmm....gays and lesbians???
may be...
Well I like sir RC, it's just that...30 minutes???!!! With about 30 students, how'd he do it? What would I say? It's really scary...(???)
~~~
I have many assignments for our band theory class in Koine, I really hope I can do everything properly. I have to manage my time well!
~~~
napanuod ko na dream girls kagabi, ang ganda ng mga kanta...ewan ko lng kung naappreciate nung kasama ko...hmp :p
Sunday, March 18, 2007
the resurrection
grabe, kagabi ko pa dinadasalan itong PC ko, PC tlga ito ni Ate roan pero share na rin rin kami! grabe magagalit sakin un if ever!!! e kasi ung speaker tinanggal ko kasi gnamit ko for another purpose...tpos nung binalik ko siya...nag-autoshutdown/restart siya....basta nagbreak down siya! waaa....at ayaw na niya magboot!!!
gusto ko lng itake ang opportunity na ito para pasalamatan ang mga dumamay sakin sa madilim na panahon ng aking buhay, at ng PC na ginagamit ko ngayon!
kay Rod na tumawag pa gamit ang celphone niya kasi may 'emergency' ako.
kay Kris na nagsabi sakin na safemode at restore ko ang settings ng pc ko
kay Gremon na kinulit ko lng naman at nagsabi na kelangan ko ng boot CD
Kay Pam na nagbigay sakin ng number ni gremon at chineck pa kung nagkausap na kami
kay bi na wala tlgang alam...bwahaha
Kay nico na najan palagi para dumamay
Kay nikkolo na ever technology boy at nag offline msg pa sakin
Kay Reniel na nakasolve ng mystery.
voila! nabuhay siya ulet!!!
kung makikita niyo...mejo desperado na ko kaya angdami kong kinontak...kasi lagot tlga ako kay ate!
sana hindi na naimbento ang computers...bwahahaha!!!
~~~
nananaginip lng ba ko kagabi...kung hindi, sabihin mo lang ha! ^^,
~~~
ay...wag nlng pala...hindi ko pa kaya kung totoo nga...
gusto ko lng itake ang opportunity na ito para pasalamatan ang mga dumamay sakin sa madilim na panahon ng aking buhay, at ng PC na ginagamit ko ngayon!
kay Rod na tumawag pa gamit ang celphone niya kasi may 'emergency' ako.
kay Kris na nagsabi sakin na safemode at restore ko ang settings ng pc ko
kay Gremon na kinulit ko lng naman at nagsabi na kelangan ko ng boot CD
Kay Pam na nagbigay sakin ng number ni gremon at chineck pa kung nagkausap na kami
kay bi na wala tlgang alam...bwahaha
Kay nico na najan palagi para dumamay
Kay nikkolo na ever technology boy at nag offline msg pa sakin
Kay Reniel na nakasolve ng mystery.
voila! nabuhay siya ulet!!!
kung makikita niyo...mejo desperado na ko kaya angdami kong kinontak...kasi lagot tlga ako kay ate!
sana hindi na naimbento ang computers...bwahahaha!!!
~~~
nananaginip lng ba ko kagabi...kung hindi, sabihin mo lang ha! ^^,
~~~
ay...wag nlng pala...hindi ko pa kaya kung totoo nga...
Saturday, March 17, 2007
sacrifices we make
We had the Koine audition for the scholars this morning! I was supposed to have my orals today, but I asked maam cuyegkeng if she can give it to me earlier so i can attend the screening! I got a decent grade given the fact that I wasn't able to study well (super impulsive decision!), and it was worth it! Kasama ako sa nagscreen ng scholars sa music track! At nakakatuwa! It was like forming an intimate relationship with someone, only it's actually with a mission. Plus nakapagbond kami ni ate Caye. Kakatuwa lng.
In the afternoon, we had our last SAN MATS Teaching session and Formation session. kakapagod kasi angkulet ng mga kids, pero in the end, superfulfilling naman lalo na when they kiss me in the cheek. kaso im officially broke...negative pa nga...may utang pa ko.
After nun, nagFS kami sa Pizza hut! oh dba! free food! pero galing san mats fund un, kaya this coming sem, we have to raise more funds to replace what we had spent this year. nakapagbond kami kahit oonti lng kami! tpos angkulet ni kuya ayanken! actually lahat ng kasama ko dun makulet! sana mas madami kami sa san mats next year...
~~~
pero syempre naGGC ako, kasi i could've done better (ang ganda ng jump ko!)
but in the end, im happy!
my biggest fear now: I might fail those whom I love, including myself.
PS: hindi siya #%^$*&^...probably meant goodbye.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
half asleep
I couldn't remember the phone ringing,
nor me picking it up.
I was already asleep,
you woke me up.
I just remember me asking you who you are:
I have forgotten your voice.
You know my memory is not good.
and yet I miss you.
Now I hope not to forget,
and yet I need to forget,
just as you did.
nor me picking it up.
I was already asleep,
you woke me up.
I just remember me asking you who you are:
I have forgotten your voice.
You know my memory is not good.
and yet I miss you.
Now I hope not to forget,
and yet I need to forget,
just as you did.
man on a mission
he walked always with a goal,
even when we're out on a walk,
he seemed to be going somewhere,
with me strolling beside him.
sometimes i just wished he'd stop,
and stay.
perhaps it was because he never had the chance to stop before,
there was always something that had to be done.
and now it became his habit: making things happen.
he called my name and i was crushed.
he was looking at me then.
he stopped.
I listened.
man on a mission,
rest with me tonight.
even when we're out on a walk,
he seemed to be going somewhere,
with me strolling beside him.
sometimes i just wished he'd stop,
and stay.
perhaps it was because he never had the chance to stop before,
there was always something that had to be done.
and now it became his habit: making things happen.
he called my name and i was crushed.
he was looking at me then.
he stopped.
I listened.
man on a mission,
rest with me tonight.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
yen's birthday
we celebrated yen's bday at Cantina's last friday just before the ACIL delibs for exec sec! saya super!
here are a few pictures i stole from jerry and karen's multiply!
^^,
ang birthday girl!!!
go spartans!!!
nanalo kami sa basketball game namin sa PE!!!
super saya! i love my team! go spartans! syempre nde naman tlga ako magaling pero super nag enjoy ako! masarap kasama mga kateam ko!
CONGRATS MAR, orsem buddy ko at mini me at MVP namin!!!! woohoo!!!
salamat kay mar at karen for making this a memorable experience!
at kay coach cha, yen, cess, aiu at coach karl at sa lahat ng sumigaw at nagcheer sa amin!!!
thanx Lord (you, not us)
super saya! i love my team! go spartans! syempre nde naman tlga ako magaling pero super nag enjoy ako! masarap kasama mga kateam ko!
CONGRATS MAR, orsem buddy ko at mini me at MVP namin!!!! woohoo!!!
salamat kay mar at karen for making this a memorable experience!
at kay coach cha, yen, cess, aiu at coach karl at sa lahat ng sumigaw at nagcheer sa amin!!!
thanx Lord (you, not us)
to a song i loved but never really related to, at least i thought so....i was wrong ^^,
OO
by updharmadown
Di mo lang alam naiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
Di mo lang alam hanggang sa gabi
Inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang
Panahon at ngayon ako’y iyong iniwan
luhaang sugatan di mapakinabangan
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam kay tagal nang panahon
Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pag sinta
Kung ako’y nagkasala, patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ng ngayon lang nagmahal
Di mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan
Na baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
Puro s’ya na lang at sana’y ako naman!
Di mo lang alam ika’y minamasdan
Sana’y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
Di mo lang alam
Kahit na tayo’y magkaibigan lang
Bumabalik ang lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
Ako’y nandito lang hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
Kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo
Sa laro na ito ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana di ka na lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako’y iyong masasaktan ng ganito
Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
Di mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan
Na baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
Puro s’ya nalang at sana ako naman
Di mo lang alam ika’y minamadsan
Sana’y iyong mamalayan hindi mo lang pala alam
Malas mo ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan
by updharmadown
Di mo lang alam naiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
Di mo lang alam hanggang sa gabi
Inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang
Panahon at ngayon ako’y iyong iniwan
luhaang sugatan di mapakinabangan
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam kay tagal nang panahon
Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pag sinta
Kung ako’y nagkasala, patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ng ngayon lang nagmahal
Di mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan
Na baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
Puro s’ya na lang at sana’y ako naman!
Di mo lang alam ika’y minamasdan
Sana’y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
Di mo lang alam
Kahit na tayo’y magkaibigan lang
Bumabalik ang lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
Ako’y nandito lang hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
Kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo
Sa laro na ito ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana di ka na lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako’y iyong masasaktan ng ganito
Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
Di mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan
Na baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
Puro s’ya nalang at sana ako naman
Di mo lang alam ika’y minamadsan
Sana’y iyong mamalayan hindi mo lang pala alam
Malas mo ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan
Thursday, March 08, 2007
wala lng ^^,
waaa....nag-eliminations kami kanina sa basketball!
woohoo nakashoot ako!!!!!! isa.
ngayon ko lang narealize, marunong na pala ako magbasketball!
nakakatuwa naman kasi nakapagbonding kami ng mga kateam ko ^^,
nakilala ko na rin pala si one true love ni krisel! woohoo...!!!
matapos nun, nagmcdo kami nina karen, mar at cha, tpos sumunod si jake at syempre super saya!!! mahal ko tlga i1!
at syempre, masaya ako dahil sa taong nagsabing "u make me smile just by smiling".
~~~
PS: napanuod ko na pala pursuit of happyness!!! HUWAW! ang ganda! As in! kasama ko si nicosai at super saya kasi matagal na rin kami hindi nagbobond!!!
woohoo nakashoot ako!!!!!! isa.
ngayon ko lang narealize, marunong na pala ako magbasketball!
nakakatuwa naman kasi nakapagbonding kami ng mga kateam ko ^^,
nakilala ko na rin pala si one true love ni krisel! woohoo...!!!
matapos nun, nagmcdo kami nina karen, mar at cha, tpos sumunod si jake at syempre super saya!!! mahal ko tlga i1!
at syempre, masaya ako dahil sa taong nagsabing "u make me smile just by smiling".
~~~
PS: napanuod ko na pala pursuit of happyness!!! HUWAW! ang ganda! As in! kasama ko si nicosai at super saya kasi matagal na rin kami hindi nagbobond!!!
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