muntik nanaman ako mamatay
wala ka pa rin nun.
ohwell, anu pa nga ba...
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
we can do better than that
i just got shot (in the heart)
and he bugged me about his C paper.
say cheese!!!
and he bugged me about his C paper.
say cheese!!!
Saturday, December 08, 2007
really wilted
Entry # 2.4
And sometimes when I say that death has come, it is the truth.
And it is in your death that I knew you,
And before I owned you, I had already let go.
And sometimes when I say that death has come, it is the truth.
And it is in your death that I knew you,
And before I owned you, I had already let go.
staying alive
Entry # 2
Remember him for it is only in memory that he can stay alive.
It took me two years to know him and how dead he was, but it only took me two weeks to forget him. It was not that I didn’t love him; it was just easier for me not to feel hurt by forgetting him. It was like forgetting a beautiful but tragic dream – so beautiful that it couldn’t have been real.
It seemed surreal that I could feel his heat. I knew there was something wrong – he was cold and hot at the same time. Yes, I forgot him, but not how he made me feel. His face, his laugh, his skin, I have forgotten, but not how I cursed under my breath when he was near.
Here I am writing his story. I cannot forget how I loved him.
Remember him for it is only in memory that he can stay alive.
It took me two years to know him and how dead he was, but it only took me two weeks to forget him. It was not that I didn’t love him; it was just easier for me not to feel hurt by forgetting him. It was like forgetting a beautiful but tragic dream – so beautiful that it couldn’t have been real.
It seemed surreal that I could feel his heat. I knew there was something wrong – he was cold and hot at the same time. Yes, I forgot him, but not how he made me feel. His face, his laugh, his skin, I have forgotten, but not how I cursed under my breath when he was near.
Here I am writing his story. I cannot forget how I loved him.
Thursday, December 06, 2007
guhit
ginuguhit mo ang katawan
ginuguhit ko ang mukha
ang pagguhit ay pagmamahal
-paghuli na hindi umaangkin
ginuguhit ko ang mukha
ang pagguhit ay pagmamahal
-paghuli na hindi umaangkin
staying dead
Entry # 1
I knew early on that you loved listening to yourself talk, so I was surprised that I still liked you. I even love listening to you talk now, a habit that has grown on me, you have grown on me. Even when I realized you talked to cover up your insecurities, I loved you even more.
It was the fifth of May when I found you all alone, listening to the sounds of people laughing, prying with envious eyes. It never occurred to me that you were dead. You were so alive. Your eyes moved with such enthusiasm that I could have mistaken you for a child getting his first bicycle ride. You had such red cheeks that I shied away from you at first. But I couldn’t hide from you, nor resist you. You must know that by now because you constantly mistreat me. Anyways, it doesn’t matter now.
I knew early on that you loved listening to yourself talk, so I was surprised that I still liked you. I even love listening to you talk now, a habit that has grown on me, you have grown on me. Even when I realized you talked to cover up your insecurities, I loved you even more.
It was the fifth of May when I found you all alone, listening to the sounds of people laughing, prying with envious eyes. It never occurred to me that you were dead. You were so alive. Your eyes moved with such enthusiasm that I could have mistaken you for a child getting his first bicycle ride. You had such red cheeks that I shied away from you at first. But I couldn’t hide from you, nor resist you. You must know that by now because you constantly mistreat me. Anyways, it doesn’t matter now.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
bula
i just feel so proud, we did it! It was all worth it (and more!!!!)
really couldn't write about it then, now i'm just happy it happened.
poster by mummy karen santos
thank You po sa tulong! >_<
Friday, October 19, 2007
first week ng sembreak!
ACIL formsem = fun at food! sayang nga lagn kulang kami!
at nagkaroon ng sore eyes epidemic! nung last day namin, 3 na ang may sore eyes...
at since last night, mga 10 na ang meron samin out of 16 council members! 11 if isasama si bro atoy! phew, buti nlng nde ako tinamaan!
Koine in CCP: Waiting in the Wings. nag extra kami sa play ni direk: To Really Like Crying over Spilt Milk! SUPERduperFUN! nagkita ulet kami nung ibang koine actors. si ate eliza, ate lara, ate les, kenneth, darren at ozy! sabi pa ni tita yvonne tumaba ako. at syempre si direk!
Sad part lang ay nabalitaan namin na Sir Flavio Tinio died last tuesday. After nung play, pumunta kami sa burol niya. I only got to play Subtext with him once ata or twice if i'm not mistaken. Minsan lang din kami nagkita. But I could feel how he loved serving and theatre from Direk's stories of him. He even ventured to make the Nueva ecija VFT.
and that's the first week of my sembreak! sana wag ako magkasore eyes, at sana maging masaya ang aking sembreak!
PS: mataas philo finals ko! I'm crying tears of joy now! akala ko mababa ako >_<
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
first day na nakatunganga
ito ang unang araw in a long while na nagkaoras ako tumunganga!
at natapos ko na panuorin ung claymore!!! wow! astig! galing ni clare! >.<
bukas gagawa nanaman kami paper at mag aaral na ko for my two orals sa sabado!
sana hindi maging boring ang bakasyon! woohoo! party!
at natapos ko na panuorin ung claymore!!! wow! astig! galing ni clare! >.<
bukas gagawa nanaman kami paper at mag aaral na ko for my two orals sa sabado!
sana hindi maging boring ang bakasyon! woohoo! party!
mauubos na ang hell weeks
waw!!!!!!!
malapit na matapos ang finals!!! T_T
pero syempre bago makarating ng finish line maraming kinailangan pagdaanan at mga pagdadaanan pa!
highlights!
15 page paper for pos116 na gnwa overnyt due thurs last week! pinagpasapasahan ako sa cityhall at sa hule ndi na ko umasa so sa internet nlng ako naghanap ng data ^^, pero reliable source naman!
another 15 page paper due friday for histo na gudlak nlng, nde ko p alam isusulat ko nung friday na un! kasi nde ko pa tapos basahin ung letters ni rizal kay pastells (na super biigat sa utak) at hindi ko alam panu ko ifeframe argument ko! e ang deadline nun ay 12 MIDNiGHT so may time pa. i did it during my break time and all night. natapos ko siya at exactly 11:58 pm!!! 'takte', grabeng stress.... paprint kami ni mummy at syempre punta kami sa kalibliban ng ateneo na tinatawag na LST para magpasa....nakapagpasa ako ng mga 12:20am
phew!!!! late pa rin...sana hindi naman masyado mapangitan si sir....in fairness feel ko hidni naman siya crap ^^,
dahil dun gusto ko magpasalamat kay mummy karen at kay RJ pernatz para sa kanyang pagiging tagapagtanggol namin sa mga mumu, kahit na malaki pa atraso niya sakin at sa mga dream girls!!!
O_< at syempre more papers! essay sa pos55 at final paper for pos116!
ang buhay polsci: nakakalunod sa papers!
but wait there's more! meron pa research paper due next monday! pero kaya na namin un! go dreamgirls + bodyguard! kahit na tayo ay pinagmalupitan at nagmumukha pang mga bitter, may prinsipyo lang tayo! >_< at mahal ko kayo! kaya natin toh! aja!
malapit na matapos ang finals!!! T_T
pero syempre bago makarating ng finish line maraming kinailangan pagdaanan at mga pagdadaanan pa!
highlights!
15 page paper for pos116 na gnwa overnyt due thurs last week! pinagpasapasahan ako sa cityhall at sa hule ndi na ko umasa so sa internet nlng ako naghanap ng data ^^, pero reliable source naman!
another 15 page paper due friday for histo na gudlak nlng, nde ko p alam isusulat ko nung friday na un! kasi nde ko pa tapos basahin ung letters ni rizal kay pastells (na super biigat sa utak) at hindi ko alam panu ko ifeframe argument ko! e ang deadline nun ay 12 MIDNiGHT so may time pa. i did it during my break time and all night. natapos ko siya at exactly 11:58 pm!!! 'takte', grabeng stress.... paprint kami ni mummy at syempre punta kami sa kalibliban ng ateneo na tinatawag na LST para magpasa....nakapagpasa ako ng mga 12:20am
phew!!!! late pa rin...sana hindi naman masyado mapangitan si sir....in fairness feel ko hidni naman siya crap ^^,
dahil dun gusto ko magpasalamat kay mummy karen at kay RJ pernatz para sa kanyang pagiging tagapagtanggol namin sa mga mumu, kahit na malaki pa atraso niya sakin at sa mga dream girls!!!
O_< at syempre more papers! essay sa pos55 at final paper for pos116!
ang buhay polsci: nakakalunod sa papers!
but wait there's more! meron pa research paper due next monday! pero kaya na namin un! go dreamgirls + bodyguard! kahit na tayo ay pinagmalupitan at nagmumukha pang mga bitter, may prinsipyo lang tayo! >_< at mahal ko kayo! kaya natin toh! aja!
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
hay, onti na lang
matapos magrant tungkol sa grades:
puffy: ok, tama na GC mode
puffy: we have to focus on what is really imprtant
puffy: LOVE <3
mummy: ..........NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
mummy: WHAT IS LOVE WITHOUT GRADES?:
takteng pos130! sayang ang B+ na magsasave sa aking arms race!
puffy: ok, tama na GC mode
puffy: we have to focus on what is really imprtant
puffy: LOVE <3
mummy: ..........NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
mummy: WHAT IS LOVE WITHOUT GRADES?:
takteng pos130! sayang ang B+ na magsasave sa aking arms race!
Monday, September 24, 2007
it's raining on me too
don't you know i'm putting up this show for you?
and now you're sad.
and you won't tell me a thing.
i hope you'd smile.
i hope that you'd be happy,
just be happy,
please.
and now you're sad.
and you won't tell me a thing.
i hope you'd smile.
i hope that you'd be happy,
just be happy,
please.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
catch and release
catch a falling star,
watch it struggle against your hands
and finally
you release it;
else its light goes out.
watch it struggle against your hands
and finally
you release it;
else its light goes out.
i see you see me
"that in itself can be art, or it can be love...that is up to you"
the rain brings with it hope
and the winds blow over the billboards
the lights go down
and we open the windows
just so we could see
and feel each other through our eyes
may be if the people just kept silent,
i wouldn't have to see you
hearing you would have been enough.
the rain brings with it hope
and the winds blow over the billboards
the lights go down
and we open the windows
just so we could see
and feel each other through our eyes
may be if the people just kept silent,
i wouldn't have to see you
hearing you would have been enough.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
rants
this is probably one of the busiest sems ever!
nag acil nstp sa umaga
then go to slum area late morning to survey people...punta kami from house to house!
then dun naman kami sa marikina, sa mga mayayamang tao kung saan may ibang snobs! inabot na kami ng gabi, mga 9pm! then nagtally kami ng results tapos kulang na kulang pa ang data. nakatulog kami mga 2 hours.
sa umaga, libot ulet ng community at nagbahay bahay para magpasurvey pa. mali mali pa sagot ng iba...hmph...cute pa naman ung nagsagot nung isa, tpos mali sagot nya...hmph! nakauwi ako hapon...tulog....gising...
ngaun paper naman kay erap!
bukas ulet. interview sa umaga...class, tally ng survey sheets sa hapon, analyze, interview, analyze. paper!
nag acil nstp sa umaga
then go to slum area late morning to survey people...punta kami from house to house!
then dun naman kami sa marikina, sa mga mayayamang tao kung saan may ibang snobs! inabot na kami ng gabi, mga 9pm! then nagtally kami ng results tapos kulang na kulang pa ang data. nakatulog kami mga 2 hours.
sa umaga, libot ulet ng community at nagbahay bahay para magpasurvey pa. mali mali pa sagot ng iba...hmph...cute pa naman ung nagsagot nung isa, tpos mali sagot nya...hmph! nakauwi ako hapon...tulog....gising...
ngaun paper naman kay erap!
bukas ulet. interview sa umaga...class, tally ng survey sheets sa hapon, analyze, interview, analyze. paper!
memories
astig, nagmessage sakin sa friendster ung super pinsan ng pinsan ko!
ung tipong tao na super nasa memory ng pagkabata ko, kasi kasama namin siya first time kami nag beach...nung unang beses ako nakakita ng shooting stars!
stig tlga!
ung tipong tao na super nasa memory ng pagkabata ko, kasi kasama namin siya first time kami nag beach...nung unang beses ako nakakita ng shooting stars!
stig tlga!
tutubi
I wanna be a tutubi na walang tinatagong bato sa kanyang mga kamay,
hah!
na nahulog sa lupa tinuka ng manok na ____________!
fill in the blank
hah!
na nahulog sa lupa tinuka ng manok na ____________!
fill in the blank
Friday, September 14, 2007
the woman in red
Last Wednesday, this guy kept calling me the woman in red (or was it the girl in red?).
~~~
I feel so tired right now.
I'm done,
Yet everything is still a haze.
I'm not yet sure what i feel.
~~~
i don;t know, but he phrase "God bless America" is ringing in my ears.
~~~
bumili ako penoy, kakainin ko mamaya.
FIrst time ko kumain nun if ever...
~~~
nagtetext sakin kuya nung kid sa 'bula'
"kamusta na phoe kau mis paeng?"
pero in fairness cute sya....
~~~
Godbless America!?
shemay...un talaga pumapasok sa utak ko.
argghh...
~~~
I feel so tired right now.
I'm done,
Yet everything is still a haze.
I'm not yet sure what i feel.
~~~
i don;t know, but he phrase "God bless America" is ringing in my ears.
~~~
bumili ako penoy, kakainin ko mamaya.
FIrst time ko kumain nun if ever...
~~~
nagtetext sakin kuya nung kid sa 'bula'
"kamusta na phoe kau mis paeng?"
pero in fairness cute sya....
~~~
Godbless America!?
shemay...un talaga pumapasok sa utak ko.
argghh...
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
wednesday morning
I woke up crying. I had a very bad dream where I was mostly angry and crying. And then I woke up.
yesterday we sort of finished bula.
Even though overkill na ang pagpunta ko kina pedro, super duper masaya naman! mejo nakakahiya lang din...hehe...
badtrip lang ung palm drive ayaw gumana. hmph!
But I got to **** ** ****
which was more than enough =p
Sana maging maayos ang araw na ito, no scary surprises, no bad dreams, and no no no technical difficulties! kundi mababaliw na tlga ako.
yesterday we sort of finished bula.
Even though overkill na ang pagpunta ko kina pedro, super duper masaya naman! mejo nakakahiya lang din...hehe...
badtrip lang ung palm drive ayaw gumana. hmph!
But I got to **** ** ****
which was more than enough =p
Sana maging maayos ang araw na ito, no scary surprises, no bad dreams, and no no no technical difficulties! kundi mababaliw na tlga ako.
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