bounty hunting

for lack of a better term, I am officially a geek.

Dont ask why. I dont have any plans on telling. I wish I lived in a 1st world country sometimes where i'd have my hollywood story. But hey I'm having fun cleaning up the mess of people who live THE life of kingpins!!!

Well anyways, life is wonderfully bland. Better put on some salt and spices cause this lady is off to a freakin' bounty hunt. The wanted villain? None other than ________. (Didn't think I was gonna spill did ya?)

It's time to put my game face on cause this time, I'm gonna get my hands dirty, if you know what I mean. If only my boss would be a little less annoying I'd be more subtle, but I guess I'd have to be a little bit more aggressive, time is ticking! Subtle is boring anyways.

Cheers! (I'd treat you if I get my reward!)

Rae Marle
Dated November 17

dead end

when you realize you're in love, you usually feel happy. But sometimes it's hard to be happy when you know it's a dead end.

i'm starting to hate how you make me feel

i f*cked up my day today
and i would blab about it to you
but hey,
you don't care, do you?

drunk

i smell white roses
the kind you never give me
unless you've done something wrong

and i would act surprised
and say you're still as sweet
as the day we met

and that i will love you
forever

and my wasted heart will love you

...i just wanted to tell you that
because it's Christmas
and everyone tells the truth when it's Christmas

paalam aking bulalakaw

though i am still hoping against the universe
that you will fall this way again

the most beautiful thing

At half past 5 this afternoon,
Just before the rain poured and the darkness sunk in,
Everything was yellow.

I recently removed my blue curtains,
Just so that i could wash them clean,
And I opened my window blinds,
Just to let the room breathe.

And there I was lying down on my bed,
swimming in the last rays of the sun
which entered through my window
listening to the sound of the people outside

Through the yellow I could see the silhouettes
Of the mutant ants marching along the vines
Which have grown on our house rails
Unattended, overlooked, forgotten.

salisi

I loved it when we were on the same side of the bed.

oh stupid! that never happened.

Bad News - Owen

whatever it is you think you are
you aren't:
a good friend, unique, well-read
good-looking, or smart
well now you know

and I hate to be the one to bear such bad news
I know it hurts to hear
but it's true
you don't mean anything
to anyone but me
and even I think
that you're blinded by conceit
well now you know

free beer
and basement shows
don't mean you've made it
it's what you do
not who you were, or what you wear, or where you've been
so do something

whoever you think is watching you dance
from across the room
they aren't
if anything, they feel sorry for you
'cause you try so hard

And I know it's mean to say
but it's something I've been meaning to say to you
for a while
you're a has-been
that never was
I know it hurts to hear
but it's the truth
so you might as well hear it
from a friend
you're a has-been
that never was
or will be


~~~~~~~~~~

and that last line which talks of hope
I will hold it firmly and try my best not to let go.

just as the song goes:

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
never let it fade away...

apology letter

It is with the most respectful tone that I write to you
my sincerest apology for acting the way I did,
for saying the things I said.

There is no amount of guilt that could absolve me of what I have done.
But know that I am anguished with the prospect of not having you with me,
for I have offended you in the gravest of manners.

with much love and affection,
yhbtnw

love letter

You know how i wonder how the person who could make you feel most alive is the very person who could make you feel you'd want nothing more than to die.
And that person is you. It has always been you.

And woe to me who realized too late.
I am always late - perhaps my biggest flaw.

You were an addiction I tried to cure.
I almost did.

It is only now that i find myself grasping for breath,
Not knowing what I should do next.

And I suddenly wonder how we got here.

I hope we always were
A would-be

sana sana sana

gigising ako bukas ng maaga
para maabutan ka

i think i know what i am going to do with my life

I'm gonna be the best mayor in the Philippines.

And of course the best songwriter in town.

happy birthday papa

happy birthday papa. I miss you even though i hadn't really met you.
I sometimes hope you were alive. At other times i think if you had lived may be life would be miserable.

Early last week I was happy. For a few days I was content and was laughing again. I had the time to walk without thinking I was wasting my time.

That seems like ages ago.

Right now, I wish you were here.

~your daughter

coping

paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:35 PM): you know, it's nice to look at pictures
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:38 PM): and memories
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:44 PM): and it's also sad
marv (9/7/2008 10:00:48 PM):(
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:49 PM): makes you want to go back
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:54 PM): but you just can't
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:03 PM): and you hate yourself for doing some of the things you did
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:10 PM): but tehy're there
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:26 PM): forever written in your brain...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:33 PM): memories just swimming around your brain
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:42 PM): regrets
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:55 PM): i hate movies
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:02:31 PM): makes you believe life is a sequence of events
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:02:41 PM): but life is just this one big mess
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:19 PM): nothing clear about it...it's just one big mess
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:30 PM): and you just drown in everything
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:36 PM): i wish i could undo certain things
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:01 PM): like you...i hope i can undo you...i hope i can undo a lot of things...but may be these are how things should be...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:16 PM): that may be God wants this to happen
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:33 PM): may be this is what should happen
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:52 PM): and that regrest are nothing more than stupid thoughts of an alternative universe
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:00 PM): may be
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:07 PM): what ifs are stupid you know
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:20 PM): but how they could overwhelm us all
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:38 PM): i hate myself for being overwhelmed by them
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:29 PM): i hope i didnt go there, that i was just from another place...that i was in an accident, that i was not there
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:41 PM): that i didnt go back
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:54 PM): that i didnt meddle with things
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:14 PM): that i wasnt involved...or that i just didnt care...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:19 PM): that oi wasnt too proud
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:25 PM): that i just didnt interfere
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:39 PM): but may be, just may be it was all good that way
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:43 PM): cause now we know
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:58 PM): now we know what the problem is
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:08:03 PM): and we were in the best place
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:08:16 PM): best place to fix it

At a glance, one can never tell that Rafaela
1. Is a magnet for bad luck, having three near death experiences in just twelve short months.
2. Is an upcoming Broadway actress, who had starred in three spectacular musicals.
3. Is a genius, who had effortlessly perfected several mind-numbing Ma11 long exams.
4. Is a devoted catechist, loved by all her kids.
5. Is the embodiment of lateness, always arriving in class five to fifteen minutes after the second bell.
6. Is an artist, with a talent for playing bass guitar, directing, poetry and song writing, drawing and even acting.
7. Is a modern-day reformist and a family-oriented Filipino.
8. Is the epitome of magis, talent and dedication. Calling her a “superwoman” would be such an understatement.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Anyone can always say that she is very artistic in every sense of the word, passionate in her commitments, shows a very critical but open mind, has been occasionally on bad terms with Lady Luck and has been unintentionally avoiding Cupid’s arrow, and so on.

However, many fail to see that in between her heartfelt singing, unwavering devotion to studies, occasional rants, critical speeches and childish conversations is also that sudden pause, an empty gaze she makes from time to time – a short but meaningful silence no one can ever fathom. For after all is already said, what really matters is to dwell in the depths of her silence; and to ask who this girl really is is to realize that there is only one definitive answer: she is none other than the girl named Rafaela.

finale

para akong nagsara ng isang napakagandang libro.
hiniling kong wag muna ito matapos
na mabuhay pa ako sa mundong nakapaloob sa mga pahina nito
pero isa isa silang nauubos

paalam aking bulalakaw.

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With some proverbial love
He will come

But what can one do?
This is not what you look for.

For the longest minutes you twist and turn
as you lay down
thinking of the 20 years you spent
looking, not finding? finding, not looking?

But you were always looking...
for whatever comes
and you thought you would know
somehow

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haha!

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