A Prayer

I've forgotten how to pray.

As I have stopped to rest
On your shoulders,
I slept,
And dreamt of odd things
But never of You.
I listen hard
But hear only my voice.
Calling out
Hoping
That You'd save me one more time.

Have I slipped to far,
And grown too old?
Has my heart stopped loving,
As I know I've loved before?

Teach me how to hear.
Show me How to rest.
I'm too tired to figure things out on my own,
Too tired of being old.

Teach me to trust again,
To live again.

Teach me to love,
For I want to know,
how to love you best.

He was laughing again,
Because of me.

I saw him once among the stars,
Now he's with me.
Laughing,
And I, Loving; though I did not know it then.

I wanted to cry,
how I waited for this.

Should I embarass myself,
I would not care.
He'd laugh still.

How I longed for his laughter,
Though I know it's because I was foolish;
He never got tired of seeing me,
never got tired of listening.

And though he never kissed my lips,
he kissed my soul.

Aug 9: The Day They Left

I am crippled.
They carry me on their shoulders,
one by one.
They were kind
and funny;
and now I'm blind.
They read for me,
word per word.
They were patient
and polite;
Now I am deaf.
They guide my touch
inch per inch.
They were soft
though at times crude.

And now i'm grown;
too heavy to be carried around,
too deaf to be read upon,
too dumb to be guided.

fall

you can't keep on falling forever.
in the end you will reach the ground and break your bones.

you can't keep on falling into nothing,
for if so, you would yourself be nothing
constantly dreaming
your fall will not mean anything
but a senseless escape into the abyss which will embrace you forever.

you can't keep on falling,
for if you do, what will become of tomorrow?
your flight will be your trap.
and you will never fly again.

you can't keep on falling forever,
for time will be of no consequence,
moments will be wasted,
life gambled away.

almost

The sound of waves crashing;
Feet under the sand;
Waiting for sunrise;
Keeping our eyes from failing.

Lungs full of breezes from other islands;
Hearts drunk, almost addicted;
Mind swimming through thoughts;
Souls touching, hands barely moving.

And yet there are no drums in the background;
A half-fulfilled fantasy,
Of two people mating,
Learning
Loving

kia

I pity you.
The world will either hate you or use you.

They will hate you,
Because you know it all.
You raise your hand,
Answer the question,
And get praised.
Their eyes speak when you speak:
Their disapproval.


They will use you,
Because you know it all.
They squeeze you dry,
Answer the question,
And get praised.
Their mouths laugh when you laugh:
A mockery.

Then they'd say they could if they wanted to outshine you;
But they're too important to lift a finger;
Be thankful.

Keep me naked, for if not we'd be strangers,
Kiss me with your song, touch me with your breath,
Rob me of my sanity, consume me.
Take me and I'll fly.

Fighting and losing.
I thought we were meant to win.
We're broken, lost into each other,
Inside we burn, we fall, we crash.

Aaaah! You hurt me. Don't hurt me.
We fall.
We burn.
We crash.

In my head you play over... and over.
You owned me, you lost me.
We crash, we cry, we ache.
You lost me.

We feel, and then nothing.
Too much, too little.
You hurt me, don't hurt me.
We're lost.
I lost you.

I'm sorry.

Dila

Maganda siya, morena,
Nakakaaliw kasama.
Pero parang tinik ang dila niya.
Nang namalayan mo, dumudugo ka na.
Pero hindi niya ata sadya,
Ganun lang siya talaga,
Kaso ang sakit hindi na mabubura,
Takpan na lng para 'di niya makita.

ngiti

ang hirap pala sumabay sa galaw ng mundo, lalo pa't wala itong eksaktong direksyong tinatahak, paikot-ikot lng. nakakahilo. at sa bawat pagdaan ng mga araw, ang mga tao sa paligid mo, gumagalaw rin. nakakalito. akala mo hindi sila mawawala, at hindi ka rin lalayo. nakakalungkot. mga bagong mukha ang iyong makakasalubong. ngingiti sila, pero ikaw ay hindi magtitiwala hangga't hindi sila sumisimangot sa iyong pagkadapa.

minsan ka na ring nagpasalamat, naging masaya. bakit parang kay layo na ng mga halakhak. hindi mo na alam ang gagawin. nagawa na ang mga pagkakamali. paano ba babangon? sana may makakasagot. pero wala. sasabihin nila, 'kaya mo yan' o kaya 'maaayos rin ang lahat' ngunit wala pa rin.

ngiti lng ng ngiti. pagod ka na. ngiti pa rin. gusto mo na umiyak. ang mga labi, tuyo na. matatapos rin ito... ngiti lang. sabi nila, magsuot ng maskara, pero hindi ba nakakainis ang pagbabalatkayo? mas mahirap pa ang pagngiti kaysa pagsimangot. pero ngiti pa rin, dahil duwag kang ayaw ipakita sa mundong mahina ka.

sa gabi gusto mo na lang matulog. nauubos na ang kulay mo. kupas. ano pa ang ihahain mo.
wala na. wala na.

prostitute

The rain is calling out her name
Please help her through the pain
It's been so long since she last prayed
For Your mercy.

Hope give her strength for another day,
God give her a break from this cruel game.

She sells herself for her mistakes
She gives her soul for a better mate.
No time to cry herself to sleep,
Her heart can only keep...

The tears she couldn't show anyone,
The love she had for a vanished son.

Bridge:

But if she opened her door
Would you comfort her?
And if she told you her life,
Would you listen?
If she broke down and cried,
Would you wipe her tears?
If she gave you her love,
Would you take her?

recycled

Naputol ang sinulid na tinahi,
Upang ika'y maikubli sa mundo.

Pinagtagpi-tagpi ang tela,
Para sa sirang puso:
Pwede na muling gamitin,
Nang iba'y makasuot
Damit na pinaglumaan
Kahit maraming gusot.

beatle

I never thought this would be
Anything more than a game.

You called me your silly girl dear,
You were my beatle in lime.

You'd dress up all out of style,
I'd laugh out my heart 'til I cry.

You broke down all of my pride,
And watched how I slowly die.

You used all your magic on me,
And now I fear that you might bleed.

Now I realize how you get to me
Now I see how you set me free
'Cause now I can fly like your planes in the sky
Just hope I can be that girl in your eyes.

You often wonder why you came in this world,
I often wish you're for me.

You prey upon you star,
This pain might leave a scar.

Try my lies.
Keep me high.

Broken boy I'll be here for you.
You have brought me closer this time,
To a world I can never surrender.

Fate

We live in different sides of the universe.
Surely we shouldn't have doubted
Fate for bringing us together
Here, at this star, so small yet so bright.

We crossed every ocean, every land,
In search for something greater than ourselves.
We found the grand design,
That meant for me to finally meet you.

I keep on wondering about this day.
To trust on chance that she was untrue.
That every little detail, every narrow road,
brought me precisely to you.

Certainty is hard to grasp.
Faith, I had called for in each sorrow,
A virtue I tried my best to keep in check,
Believing life would not stray me from you.

Many times I prayed for all things to be in place,
Now I know the Lord was listening after all.
My prayers of thanksgiving, I sing in glee.
That God blessed me with love from thee.


I wish someday this poem I sing in truth, and love, and serenity.

tanong

Sino ka ba talaga?
Ano ba talagang gusto mo?
wag magtago sa gitara,
Kumanta ng iyong kanta.

Bakit ba gusto ka nila?
Bakit ba gusto rin kita?
Baka dahil gusto ka nila,
Tumitingin sa mata ng iba.

O baka dahil ayaw mo sila
At parang ayaw mo rin ako,
kaya't nais maangkin ka
Maging ang pipiliin mo.

Paano kung kasi mabait ka,
At laging mapagkumbaba,
Kami'y pinapatawa,
Binibigyang halaga.

my heart =p

bato na nga, nasasaktan pa rin...
O.o

the pope

the pope, he was drunk
And he was hiding behind the crimson room.
He was a holy man
No more.

We need his confession
As the world who confessed to him.
Up at the highest floor,
Venture forth for his version.

They wouldn't let us see him.
He was a busy man.
At the top of the tower
He works with his minions.

No one believed us.
If they only saw with their own eyes,
How he walked as drunk men do
Up to his crimson red covered room.

shells

He was far away and he wrote me a letter,
He whispered in my ears
how he longed for us:
"The shells, shaped like our bodies would nevel feel."
Like we were forever unable to feel each other,
As the ocean fills every grain of sand with its embrace.

But we did meet, somehow,
Under a mushroom tree - which could never be real
And then the rain fell down.

He carried our baby
As he coughed.
Perhaps because of the cold.
And he was sick.

He tried to hide it.
The baby shouldn't hear,
Shouldn't feel
The cough and the cold.

stranger

He was a stranger who I didn't love,
A friend I always wanted,
And a love I could have had
-but only in my dreams.

He changed and became the man I wanted
rather the man I didn't think he could become.
And he did.

And it hurts to know he is no longer the stranger I didn't love.

panibagong suliranin

Bakit ba kapag pinigil ang apoy
Parang lalo pang sumisiklab?
Liliyab, parang gusto lumaban.
May sariling buhay na ipinaglalaban,
Ayaw bitawan.

rose

My dear Rose
She needs my waters
She awaits for the world to tame her.
And follow her.

She loves like other roses:
the best way she can; beautifully.

She pierces his heart with her thorns
As if trying his love and patience.