it's raining on me too

don't you know i'm putting up this show for you?
and now you're sad.
and you won't tell me a thing.

i hope you'd smile.
i hope that you'd be happy,
just be happy,
please.

catch and release

catch a falling star,
watch it struggle against your hands
and finally
you release it;
else its light goes out.

i see you see me

"that in itself can be art, or it can be love...that is up to you"

the rain brings with it hope


and the winds blow over the billboards
the lights go down
and we open the windows
just so we could see
and feel each other through our eyes

may be if the people just kept silent,
i wouldn't have to see you
hearing you would have been enough.

rants

this is probably one of the busiest sems ever!

nag acil nstp sa umaga
then go to slum area late morning to survey people...punta kami from house to house!

then dun naman kami sa marikina, sa mga mayayamang tao kung saan may ibang snobs! inabot na kami ng gabi, mga 9pm! then nagtally kami ng results tapos kulang na kulang pa ang data. nakatulog kami mga 2 hours.

sa umaga, libot ulet ng community at nagbahay bahay para magpasurvey pa. mali mali pa sagot ng iba...hmph...cute pa naman ung nagsagot nung isa, tpos mali sagot nya...hmph! nakauwi ako hapon...tulog....gising...

ngaun paper naman kay erap!

bukas ulet. interview sa umaga...class, tally ng survey sheets sa hapon, analyze, interview, analyze. paper!

memories

astig, nagmessage sakin sa friendster ung super pinsan ng pinsan ko!
ung tipong tao na super nasa memory ng pagkabata ko, kasi kasama namin siya first time kami nag beach...nung unang beses ako nakakita ng shooting stars!

stig tlga!

tutubi

I wanna be a tutubi na walang tinatagong bato sa kanyang mga kamay,

hah!

na nahulog sa lupa tinuka ng manok na ____________!

fill in the blank

lagi na lang ako nadadapa

literally pare!

sakit ng tuhod ko.

therapy ang pagboblog.

the woman in red

Last Wednesday, this guy kept calling me the woman in red (or was it the girl in red?).

~~~
I feel so tired right now.
I'm done,
Yet everything is still a haze.
I'm not yet sure what i feel.

~~~

i don;t know, but he phrase "God bless America" is ringing in my ears.

~~~

bumili ako penoy, kakainin ko mamaya.
FIrst time ko kumain nun if ever...

~~~
nagtetext sakin kuya nung kid sa 'bula'
"kamusta na phoe kau mis paeng?"
pero in fairness cute sya....

~~~
Godbless America!?
shemay...un talaga pumapasok sa utak ko.
argghh...

wednesday morning

I woke up crying. I had a very bad dream where I was mostly angry and crying. And then I woke up.

yesterday we sort of finished bula.
Even though overkill na ang pagpunta ko kina pedro, super duper masaya naman! mejo nakakahiya lang din...hehe...
badtrip lang ung palm drive ayaw gumana. hmph!
But I got to **** ** ****
which was more than enough =p

Sana maging maayos ang araw na ito, no scary surprises, no bad dreams, and no no no technical difficulties! kundi mababaliw na tlga ako.

message to everyone

you under estimate doing what you do..that's your life for goodness sake....it's you.....it's the only thing you cant separate yourself from unless mabaliw ka.......if nde ka content sa gngwa mo...e d do something else....
love something other than yourself.....live for something......hope....

questions....(apparently not the last time)

tanong ko kay marv:

bkit black and white?
becoz it adds charm?
pero sometimes i wonder why we extract the colors in life
why we have to alter
edit
make perfect

marv: malay mo pumangit
paeng_160: bkit kelangan maganda?

this is the last time

She won't pretend if he'd ask her.
But it's too late not to pretend.
He said good bye then
Just in time when she was going to let him in.

lost in translation again

It's hard to translate feelings into words,
But I'll try
Just so you would understand.

It's easier when I put it into a melody,
or show them through my tears.
Though you might not get it still.

I'm learning to keep quiet
About things that really bother me.
It becomes harder,
knowing my words do not mean as much as I want them to.

may be another day

I almost saw the sun set today,
As i was riding the LRT,
on my way home.

But just as it was about to set, the buildings got taller and taller.

There are days when I cease to hope,
Because it doesn't seem to get me anywhere.
But at times when I get to see something beautiful,
like the sun setting
I find myself hoping again.

Pity I didn't see it set today.
Well,
Almost.

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I solve problems and I think I'm really good at it.
I don't ask for help, because I don't want to owe anyone anything.
When I do ask for it,
it's when I know the one I'd ask won't expect anything in return,
or love me enough so that they don't care if offering a hand would mean going out of their way.

But I don't know how to solve this one.
And there's seems to be no one who could help me.

Now, I'm back at square one
Solving, adding, subtracting,
Rechecking my answer
Where did I go wrong?

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I'm asking for help now
And I feel ashamed because I'm asking for your help when you don't love me enough to go out of your way

I'm sorry.

Humpty dumpty

He says:
I'm afraid I can't fix you now.

foolish girl
you shouldn't have let yourself fall,
you knew it would break you.

Or did you think I would catch you?

manong, dadaan po ba ng ligaya?

for weeks now i've been planning on posting an entry but i've never really had time nor the reason to actually post one. It's has been one big roller coaster these past few weeks and i don't even know how it all started. But now that i think about it, knowing that the hardest thing has come to pass, i feel happy. i realize it was fun despite the stress and all those challenges.

I'm up early to do my RRL for our group research due today. Wasn't able to do it last night cause pedro and i had to edit the film. super bait ng parents niya. nagulat nga ako kasi nde ko ineexpect na maramiing tao sa kanila. grabe ung hospitality nila! Some of the most heartwarming people i've met. tsaka sarap ng food nila ^^, And i was really happy kasi maganda resolution nung video nung nilipat sa pc. kaso mga more than 5 GB ata ung file size.

bukod pa dun nagcalligraphy lessons kami ni jo kahapon! (jo savior ka talaga!) i know how to write 'love' and 'hope' in jap! sort of. kahit na nde ako na-VG ng jap teacher. ahah...pero saya! kakatanggal stress.

tpos nung wed, nakikipagpatentero kami sa higad nina mummy at jo at jinno habang naghihintay na dumaan si gory na nde naman dumaan...and i just had to write that down so i won't forget it ^^,