I'm gonna be the best mayor in the Philippines.
And of course the best songwriter in town.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 08, 2008
happy birthday papa
happy birthday papa. I miss you even though i hadn't really met you.
I sometimes hope you were alive. At other times i think if you had lived may be life would be miserable.
Early last week I was happy. For a few days I was content and was laughing again. I had the time to walk without thinking I was wasting my time.
That seems like ages ago.
Right now, I wish you were here.
~your daughter
I sometimes hope you were alive. At other times i think if you had lived may be life would be miserable.
Early last week I was happy. For a few days I was content and was laughing again. I had the time to walk without thinking I was wasting my time.
That seems like ages ago.
Right now, I wish you were here.
~your daughter
Sunday, September 07, 2008
coping
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:35 PM): you know, it's nice to look at pictures
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:38 PM): and memories
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:44 PM): and it's also sad
marv (9/7/2008 10:00:48 PM):(
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:49 PM): makes you want to go back
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:54 PM): but you just can't
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:03 PM): and you hate yourself for doing some of the things you did
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:10 PM): but tehy're there
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:26 PM): forever written in your brain...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:33 PM): memories just swimming around your brain
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:42 PM): regrets
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:55 PM): i hate movies
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:02:31 PM): makes you believe life is a sequence of events
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:02:41 PM): but life is just this one big mess
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:19 PM): nothing clear about it...it's just one big mess
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:30 PM): and you just drown in everything
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:36 PM): i wish i could undo certain things
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:01 PM): like you...i hope i can undo you...i hope i can undo a lot of things...but may be these are how things should be...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:16 PM): that may be God wants this to happen
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:33 PM): may be this is what should happen
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:52 PM): and that regrest are nothing more than stupid thoughts of an alternative universe
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:00 PM): may be
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:07 PM): what ifs are stupid you know
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:20 PM): but how they could overwhelm us all
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:38 PM): i hate myself for being overwhelmed by them
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:29 PM): i hope i didnt go there, that i was just from another place...that i was in an accident, that i was not there
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:41 PM): that i didnt go back
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:54 PM): that i didnt meddle with things
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:14 PM): that i wasnt involved...or that i just didnt care...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:19 PM): that oi wasnt too proud
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:25 PM): that i just didnt interfere
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:39 PM): but may be, just may be it was all good that way
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:43 PM): cause now we know
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:58 PM): now we know what the problem is
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:08:03 PM): and we were in the best place
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:08:16 PM): best place to fix it
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:38 PM): and memories
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:44 PM): and it's also sad
marv (9/7/2008 10:00:48 PM):(
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:49 PM): makes you want to go back
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:00:54 PM): but you just can't
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:03 PM): and you hate yourself for doing some of the things you did
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:10 PM): but tehy're there
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:26 PM): forever written in your brain...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:33 PM): memories just swimming around your brain
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:42 PM): regrets
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:01:55 PM): i hate movies
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:02:31 PM): makes you believe life is a sequence of events
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:02:41 PM): but life is just this one big mess
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:19 PM): nothing clear about it...it's just one big mess
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:30 PM): and you just drown in everything
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:03:36 PM): i wish i could undo certain things
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:01 PM): like you...i hope i can undo you...i hope i can undo a lot of things...but may be these are how things should be...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:16 PM): that may be God wants this to happen
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:33 PM): may be this is what should happen
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:04:52 PM): and that regrest are nothing more than stupid thoughts of an alternative universe
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:00 PM): may be
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:07 PM): what ifs are stupid you know
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:20 PM): but how they could overwhelm us all
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:05:38 PM): i hate myself for being overwhelmed by them
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:29 PM): i hope i didnt go there, that i was just from another place...that i was in an accident, that i was not there
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:41 PM): that i didnt go back
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:06:54 PM): that i didnt meddle with things
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:14 PM): that i wasnt involved...or that i just didnt care...
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:19 PM): that oi wasnt too proud
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:25 PM): that i just didnt interfere
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:39 PM): but may be, just may be it was all good that way
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:43 PM): cause now we know
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:07:58 PM): now we know what the problem is
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:08:03 PM): and we were in the best place
paeng_160 (9/7/2008 10:08:16 PM): best place to fix it
Monday, September 01, 2008
At a glance, one can never tell that Rafaela
1. Is a magnet for bad luck, having three near death experiences in just twelve short months.
2. Is an upcoming Broadway actress, who had starred in three spectacular musicals.
3. Is a genius, who had effortlessly perfected several mind-numbing Ma11 long exams.
4. Is a devoted catechist, loved by all her kids.
5. Is the embodiment of lateness, always arriving in class five to fifteen minutes after the second bell.
6. Is an artist, with a talent for playing bass guitar, directing, poetry and song writing, drawing and even acting.
7. Is a modern-day reformist and a family-oriented Filipino.
8. Is the epitome of magis, talent and dedication. Calling her a “superwoman” would be such an understatement.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Anyone can always say that she is very artistic in every sense of the word, passionate in her commitments, shows a very critical but open mind, has been occasionally on bad terms with Lady Luck and has been unintentionally avoiding Cupid’s arrow, and so on.
However, many fail to see that in between her heartfelt singing, unwavering devotion to studies, occasional rants, critical speeches and childish conversations is also that sudden pause, an empty gaze she makes from time to time – a short but meaningful silence no one can ever fathom. For after all is already said, what really matters is to dwell in the depths of her silence; and to ask who this girl really is is to realize that there is only one definitive answer: she is none other than the girl named Rafaela.
1. Is a magnet for bad luck, having three near death experiences in just twelve short months.
2. Is an upcoming Broadway actress, who had starred in three spectacular musicals.
3. Is a genius, who had effortlessly perfected several mind-numbing Ma11 long exams.
4. Is a devoted catechist, loved by all her kids.
5. Is the embodiment of lateness, always arriving in class five to fifteen minutes after the second bell.
6. Is an artist, with a talent for playing bass guitar, directing, poetry and song writing, drawing and even acting.
7. Is a modern-day reformist and a family-oriented Filipino.
8. Is the epitome of magis, talent and dedication. Calling her a “superwoman” would be such an understatement.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Anyone can always say that she is very artistic in every sense of the word, passionate in her commitments, shows a very critical but open mind, has been occasionally on bad terms with Lady Luck and has been unintentionally avoiding Cupid’s arrow, and so on.
However, many fail to see that in between her heartfelt singing, unwavering devotion to studies, occasional rants, critical speeches and childish conversations is also that sudden pause, an empty gaze she makes from time to time – a short but meaningful silence no one can ever fathom. For after all is already said, what really matters is to dwell in the depths of her silence; and to ask who this girl really is is to realize that there is only one definitive answer: she is none other than the girl named Rafaela.
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