guessing is falling

I keep telling myself to stop
Just let the leaf fall
On its own time
After he pushes you.

No way to be sure,
Never would be sure.
You guess.

When you feel most of the weight,
Don't jump,
Fall.
Just fall.

You gain speed,
And you embrace it,
So much so that you're beaten
By that which keeps you from crashing.

You don't really know,
Never would know,
No self-affirmation
You guess.

You forget how to listen,
Listen to silence,
Silence your thoughts,
Let him sing for you.

Time closes in on you.
What do you do?
You guess.

You wonder if there are no shadows,
Or if you just can't see them,
For nothing's near, nothing's far.

How'd you know how to move?
What to say?
What to look for?
And why?

You fall.
Just fall.